Monday, 24 April 2017
Today was my original due date and it's crazy to think that my baby girl arrived over a month ago now! Although I'm basically healed from the after birth portion, I'm still recovering from the HG side of things; as some foods and smells I'm getting re-accustomed to and some I won't ever be able to tolerate again! The multiple scars on my body, some I may have for life and the severity of my weight loss. It'll take three years, a far cry from the 6 weeks doctors usually give for a non-cesarean birth *sigh* This is my second time around and although I've experienced some things with this disease previously, this pregnancy was a lot harder even the last weeks and the delivery were very traumatic!
As most of you know after Tionne was born she immediately was rushed to the NICU at Sick Kids due to her being a preemie but she also had a condition that made it very difficult for her to breath. She not only made it through the night, which most of the medical staff weren't sure if she would make it that first night, she fought for 17 days total. Due to a complication with her lungs (which surgery could not fix) we sadly had to say goodbye. She is now at peace but naturally life will never be the same and our family would love nothing more than to have her here in the physical!
Most look at us and say how sad you only had your youngest daughter for just a little over two weeks and never got to bring her home. The truth is she was home for a whole 8 months prior to that. We spent Xmas together last year, Mr Specyal's cake day before that, my cake day and even my oldest daughter's as we were all in Jamaica then - although no one believed I was in fact pregnant yet lol. The point I'm making here is she was very much alive, yes unborn but alive none-the- less. We all developed personal relationships with her. Watching her older sis interact with her and how she would always respond to her, they actually would dance together a memory I will cherish for always!
Unfortunately there are still a lot of questions surrounding Tionne's condition and why exactly all this happened. My other half and I have continually done research and signs are fully pointing towards there being a direct link to HG. We have become strong advocates to help raise awareness because currently there still is not a test to detect it and there is no cure! Most people really don't understand that if you're planning on starting or expanding your family, whether this will be your first child or not, HG does not discriminate. It truly does not care what you have already gone through, no one is immune! Only about 2% of women in Canada will experience this and I, the Specyal one that I am, hit the HG lottery twice! Doctor's have told me there are contributing factors that could help in being a non-official way to see if you could be at risk. It's hereditary your mother also suffered from it, or your own health isn't very good and could be a factor. Both of these categories I did not fall under and still had back to back times with it. *Insert shock face here!*
With going through this experience again and after seeing not only family and friends and friends of friends still being so unaware and naive to this condition but also medical professionals not even really listening most of the time. Throwing some drugs at it like a quick fix, I decided I need to speak up in a more profound way. My next release (which I'm working on currently) is going to be an EP entitled "Tionne" and I actually started writing it when I was 7 + months along. I was having extreme pain in my uterus which was not normal by any means and it was becoming increasingly hard to breath. This lasted up to and through delivery (two liters of fluid came out of me before the pressure came down and she came out; again not normal) I figured it would be cool to have most of the album written during the experience and then with the final song coming after her birth. As fate would have it I ended up only getting two written as she came very early. Not only is this an EP telling the story of my 2nd pregnancy specifically and what my family has gone through but also the life of an HG mom and family in general. Not enough of us fully speak up about it and if so maybe only to close friends / family or other HG families as it's more comfortable with no judgement passed.
With only 17 days on the earth, Tionne has touched so many lives, she's brought us into contact with people that we'll love, respect and cherish for life! Although so young, she showed such a maturity in her strength and perseverance. She definitely was an angel on earth and I'm so very thankful and blessed to have been chosen to be her mom! Tionne I Love You For Always ♥
Wednesday, 27 July 2016
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Friday, 5 February 2016
Happy New Year #Specyalites :) I hope y'all are having a great 2016 so far! Wow already one month down!
On January 10th I was Live @ The Tennessee with my band Chasing Sunday. I met a new fan (Lubo) and even posed for a photo in the middle of my set. #CusIAmSpecyal :)
Recently I signed a new management deal. This new collaboration will hopefully lead to many great opportunities for my career advancement over the coming year. Stay tuned!
Wednesday, 21 October 2015
My new EP C.A.K.E. is now available on iTunes. It's coming soon to all major digital retailers and will also be available at HMV. Check out my Promo 16 and big ups to the Jays for keeping their playoff hopes alive with their win tonite! Support unique urban music vibes! Thanks in advance!
Wednesday, 14 October 2015
As most of you know I've been in the music industry in different capacities for many years and have seen many changes, however with regards to the urban music market unfortunately things have not made much positive movement as it really should have by now. This year especially I've come across so many fraudulent artists turned booker, venue owners, bookers, A&R's etc it would make your head spin! I've practically become a P.I. with all the research and fact checking I've had to do over these past few months with making sure I don't affiliate myself and brand with anymore fraudulent entities!
It's one thing when a low down venue owner who only cares about his bottom line (which is filling his spot with people who'll buy drinks so he gets paid and not the musicians who are providing the actual entertainment), but when a fellow artist, someone who has once too been cheated in some capacity, turns around and not only does the exact same thing to others, they also have the nerve to state that "this is how it works in the urban markets" and musicians need to "invest" in their careers. Now we all know actual investments usually give you a decent return and if it's looking like things are going left you can easily pull out and move on. In these situations though unfortunately, they want you to invest not only your time and energy, but also your own funds and essentially not be paid for any of your efforts! Apparently this is the new musician "investment plan." It's straight up disgusting and no one seems to be doing anything to really change this dynamic. Most now just throw up their hands and some don't even continue on with their careers. With spirits crushed, their drives go with it.
The latest case of these "Fraud Allergies" comes courtesy of a US promotion company that also does some shows here in Canada as well. They are not only using "major label reps" to lure artists through, but also legendary venues such as The Hard Rock Cafe who are allowing this ridiculousness to continue. One artist who's also not new to the game had an encounter with this company and posted his complaint check it out here:
I just recently learned that a next promotion company, apparently when they get called out by musicians that unsuspectedly decide to work with them, have not only threatened them but also their families. WTF this is seriously outrageous and has become a very serious situation. With more and more unknown to known acts leaving the region to pursue their dreams, giving up on their own city changing their ways, while known acts come back to become ambassadors of sports teams and open up restaurants, the situation has gone from serious to critical and statistically for females in this market it's 20x worse (I'm just saying).
Personally I always try to make sure to inform my fellow artists and bring awareness as much as I can. I will always get artists here and there contacting me to get my opinion on various people / companies in the industry and I'm always humbled and thankful my opinion is so respected. This year though I've also been contacted by artists I haven't had the pleasure to meet or work with. In these cases my reputation has proceeded me and I am so blessed to be given the ability to help others with my knowledge and insight.
We never know what the future will bring. For now stay tuned for upcoming show dates please continue to support legit urban music vibes cus Counterfeit Ain't Legit! Also please enjoy my latest release C.A.K.E. available on iTunes + HMV Oct. 21st! Cus there's always room for CAKE =D
Thursday, 17 September 2015
Saturday, 12 September 2015
It's been a minute since my last update on here I know. I've been actively busy with rehearsals with the two bands that I'm in. My official backing band Chasing Sunday and I have been going hard in rehearsals and in two weeks today will be playing live at The Cock & Pheasant in Sauga! Come out and support unique urban music vibes! Always luv to see y'all! Will definitely be hype vibes!